Beautiful Day...

I was blessed with a wonderful weekend. Saturday I ran errands and took care of things at home, in the afternoon I dropped Simone off at her first sleep over with her best friends from daycare -She had an awesome time!. I left then to pick up Jimmy and head off to a barbecue at our lovely friends Ryan & Gemma. It was wonderful to drink a bit and chat a lot with Poly and see her lovely baby girl Sylvana. There was another baby there, Abby and it made me realize that it I would love to have a baby. Just a thought...

Today we went to Tarara for a family lunch. Jimmy came along and he was wonderful. I am so thankful for our beautiful relationship. We have gone through a whole lot together but the backbone of us, is our love and respect for each other. I am very happy with him and I am happy for have we have built. Despite external circumstances my life is so abundant and rich and wonderful. There are so many beautiful people in my life. I am provided for abundantly everyday and prosperously. I am happy and grateful for today!

happy

so true happiness comes when external circumstances do not affect your mood...lately i live in a state of deep joy and today was just a overwhelming manifestation of miracles.

thank you for everything, thank you for every second of this day.

Gracias...

Hoy aprendi, y mucho, muchisimo. Aprendi que soy bendecida, que tengo abundancia, que tengo TODO. Puedo tener mas y esta bien pero las bendiciones que ya tengo son inmensas. Hoy aprendi que mi vida no es dura, que soy single mom pero no soy madre sola. Tengo muchisimo apoyo de familia y amigos y ademas un ex-esposo que ama a nuestra hija y esta pendiente de cualquier necesidad que ella pueda tener. Que tengo a Dios en mi vida y que en estos 3 anos he conocido mas de cerca su amor para con nosotros y he entendido un poco mas el proposito del dolor en la vida. Que cada reto es una bendicion esperando manifestarse, si tan solo trascendemos el momento y vamos mas alla de nuestra perspectiva limitada. Es mas facil decirlo que hacerlo pero en esas estoy...aprendiendo, despertando.

Hoy ademas quiero darte gracias Dios porque llego dinero de donde no lo esperaba, definitivamente los milagros son enormes y tu provees para todo, solamente hay que confiar en ti. Tener fe. Como puedo yo llevarles a estas mujeres y estos ninos un poquito de este conocimiento...como llevarles a ellos el secreto de que ellos pueden tranformar su vida...de que hay maneras de cambiar el mundo. Como hacerlos creer o tener esperanza si la realidad es tan dura. Quiero ayudar, quiero darles algo para que sonrian y tengan un futuro mejor. Y no es un deseo elitista, es un deseo profundo que nunca habia visto antes, pero siento hace rato. Creo que ellas son mi mision. Siempre he dicho que quiero vivir alla en Cartagena, ultimamente siento el deseo de ensenarles a las mujeres a crecer mas alla del dolor y abuso por la pareja. Nosotras nos creamos tanto drama...y yo tan solo voy aprendiendo pero tal vez estas cosas que se estan uniendo dentro de mi son el comienzo de algo mas grande, el comienzo de mi proposito. Thank you father mother God. Thank you for so much and for everything.

A troubled heart...

I have not been feeling my best. It is weird how when things don't flow or don't seem clear it is hard to see the light. I am remaining come and I know and acknowledge all the blessings in my life and yet I feel nervous, and anxious and not in the best of moods. I need to rescue myself again, and feel light and happy and full of hope...but somehow I am not. I am going to watch a movie, relax, meditate, watch the secret in the morning and continue my journey. I know the blessings will bloom soon, I know that this too shall pass and that it will all be alright just that right now a part of me is resisting to surrender and believe. It is a challenging journey a life of faith.

Gratitude in Adversity...

As much as I like my free time, I am thinking that my peace of heart is my priority...I am working towards a full time job as this market starts to slow down. I am happy yet puzzled, I believe I am getting signals from all over the place about what I should do but I am not seeing them. Thank you for all the daily blessings I receive but at this moment I need you to speak to me loud and clear. I don't want to interpret, I want to know with the utmost certainty that I am going where I should and doing what I should. I need your light, strength and guidance. Thank you for never leaving me without. Thank you for the last 3 days, they were absolutely beautiful!

Off to the beach for 4 days,,,

I am happy for my family, my daughter's smile, my loving boyfriend, my house, my job, my next 4 days at the beach...

Strength and Faith...

I am grateful today for many things:

• I got my contract back and will be settling next Friday.
• Simone is turning 6 tomorrow.
• Saul Garcia called.
• I have been provided to pay for all my bills.
• I am having lots of fun.
• I am having a lot of free time.
• I had an evening of the pool and some friends.
• I have a sweet boyfriend.
• I am learning to forgive myself.
• I am provided for abundantly.
• I am seeing the blessing of tithing in my life.
• I have reconnected with a lot of old friends.
• I am leaving for the beach tomorrow.
• I am learning so much everyday...
  

Tithing....

Today I am so thankful because blessings are just pouring in. I have been faithfully tithing this last month. I have been trying to do it months ago but I had been really afraid and was not constant with my commitment. I stopped looking at my account over a month ago, I have been so fearful to know my balance, afraid that I couldn't pay my bills, my rent, etc. Last week I cashed the child support check and set th 10% aside...today I had pay all my credit cards and bravely called, I thought I had some $200...but yet I was at peace. This month I have really confronted my fear with money and although I would not look at the account I was at peace...NO NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS or SLEEPLESS NIGHTS...just affirmations and trying to live in the moment...so the miracle is that my account balance was 10 x my tithe! and I have been using the account for everything and needless to say, it was more than enough to pay all I had to pay. I was so happy. God is really my source and I am healing.

The other part is that I am thankful for becoming more present to what I want my professional life to be. I want to be free, spend time with my daughter and yet be challenged and learn and serve with my work. Also I want to continue evolving a have my own business, art school for kids, coaching and empowering for women?? There are so many sources in English, not so much in Spanish and so many people come to me for advice, or just to listen. I have also learned not to become attached to their actions, I want to get better, heal, learn their lessons and feel truly happy but I am respecting their path and their decisions.

The Greatest Challenge

The greatest challenge is to find a blessing in adversity. Today I am grateful for all friends. Simone had a bday party and I had the chance to chat with mothers and it was nice. I got to spend time with old friends and it was nice to have a few drinks, and chat. I am grateful for having Jimmy drunk sleeping in my car, it is reality even if I want to hide it with my hands, and my heart. This week the messages have come from all over. Pilar's look, Claudia's talk, Arturo's astrological observation....his comments on the 4 important women in his life: his 3 sisters and his mom. him getting drunk. It is quite clear I now just need action. I love him, I am not in love with him, but he has been a blessing and is a great soul. He will be blessed and he will do great but I trully feel this is the end of our story. Oh, 2 friends turned out to be Isa Toro's cousins, what a beautiful coincidence.

Thank you Father Mother God for your infinite blessings, my heart is filled with gratitude and love. You are my source!

Great Day!

What a wonderful day! It is so important to be present and seek the gifts of each day. Today was the best. Simone and I spent the whole day together and these are some of the great blessings:

• We had a yummy breakfast.
• My contract is being worked on at the bank, we should definitely have it back by Monday.
  
• Exchanged a wireless router for a memory card for her ipod.
• She also got a craft and a battery operated pencil sharpener.
• We had pasta for lunch, with Alexandra.
• We ran to the movies to see Nancy Drew.
• Kokelita invited us for strawberry ice cream and cookies.
• We did the craft, mostly Simo alone and she did a great job!
• We came home and made dinner: broccoli, corn, mango, rice balls and passion fruit juice.
• We watched a movie together Daddy's Girls.
• I started downloading videos for her memory card, not much luck but learning.

It was such a happy day, we have spent so much time together, I love it! Also I came present to wanting to help empower women and leave painful, abusive relationships...

God is my instant, constant and abundant source!

Money Manifestations

They come everyday and money is FLOWING into my life. I am grateful for:

• All the pennies and quarter I am finding everywhere and randomly.
• The lottery ticket in which I won $1.
• All the child support checks I have gotten.
• My new account which has ever lasting funds and has allowed me to support all the daily expenses. Money continues to POUR into this account, it is OVERFLOWING with money!!
• The $32 my brother gave without me asking for it.

And this is just the beginning....such an exciting moment in my life!

Thankful...

1. I am thankful for these summer days with Simone.
2. I am thankful for having the time yesterday to spend with all these wonderful children and having the honor of spending an afternoon of swimming with them.
3. I am thankful for the ease of the contract with Felix and settlement in just 7 days!
4. I am thankful for the daily ideas for prosperity in my business.
5. I am thankful for the airfilter idea!!! I will implement it soon.
   
6. I am thankful for Felix, Antonio, Mariana, Osmin, Santos, Maximino and their trust in my work.
7. I am thankful for my office and the freedom I have there.
8. I am thankful for the courage and faith to leave the past "security" and venture unto my own.
   
9. I am thankful for my house, all the space we have, the hardwood floors and my very lovely neighbors.
10. I am thankful for my brothers and my sister and their loving support.
11. I am thankful for my ex-husband, his commitment as a father and our renewed relationship.
12. I am thankful for Jimmy, his love, support and lessons of life.
13. I am thankful for the joy and peace that fills my heart and my soul.
14. I am thankful for my strengthen faith in God.
15. I am thankful for my new commitment and love of tithing.
16. I am thankful for all the life lessons that have brought to where I am.
17. I am thankful for me, for every part of me specially my butt and my thighs that have always caused so much shame for I was unaware that the simple fact of having them is a blessing in itself.
    
18. I am thankful for my toes and toenails that have gotten so many compliments lately and once again show that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
19. I am thankful for all my new friends, Alexandra, Catalina, Melissa, Linda. All examples of strong determined women and have many lessons to teach me.
20. I am thankful for Unity Churches and New Thought Christian churches because I have found a spiritual home. I am not crazy and there are thousands of people that think like me.
21. I am thankful for The Secret because it taught me that it is all in my mind. That I am not destined to anything, I am a creator of my reality and have the power to transform my life.
22. I am thankful for all the spiritual teachers I have found in the last 4 months.
23. I am thankful for the courage and faith that takes me through life.
24. I am thankful for my brother Carlos that opened the door to all these new spiritual blessings and lessons.
25. I am thankful for the blessings to come through the calls I got from Alexis Claudio and David Vasquez.
    

I am ever so thankful for this day and Your Divine Presence in my life and my heart. May all my actions today come from Love. I affirm my attention to all my activities today and be present and aware of all new opportunities and blessings in my life.