Gratitude in Adversity...

As much as I like my free time, I am thinking that my peace of heart is my priority...I am working towards a full time job as this market starts to slow down. I am happy yet puzzled, I believe I am getting signals from all over the place about what I should do but I am not seeing them. Thank you for all the daily blessings I receive but at this moment I need you to speak to me loud and clear. I don't want to interpret, I want to know with the utmost certainty that I am going where I should and doing what I should. I need your light, strength and guidance. Thank you for never leaving me without. Thank you for the last 3 days, they were absolutely beautiful!

Off to the beach for 4 days,,,

I am happy for my family, my daughter's smile, my loving boyfriend, my house, my job, my next 4 days at the beach...

Strength and Faith...

I am grateful today for many things:

• I got my contract back and will be settling next Friday.
• Simone is turning 6 tomorrow.
• Saul Garcia called.
• I have been provided to pay for all my bills.
• I am having lots of fun.
• I am having a lot of free time.
• I had an evening of the pool and some friends.
• I have a sweet boyfriend.
• I am learning to forgive myself.
• I am provided for abundantly.
• I am seeing the blessing of tithing in my life.
• I have reconnected with a lot of old friends.
• I am leaving for the beach tomorrow.
• I am learning so much everyday...
  

Tithing....

Today I am so thankful because blessings are just pouring in. I have been faithfully tithing this last month. I have been trying to do it months ago but I had been really afraid and was not constant with my commitment. I stopped looking at my account over a month ago, I have been so fearful to know my balance, afraid that I couldn't pay my bills, my rent, etc. Last week I cashed the child support check and set th 10% aside...today I had pay all my credit cards and bravely called, I thought I had some $200...but yet I was at peace. This month I have really confronted my fear with money and although I would not look at the account I was at peace...NO NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS or SLEEPLESS NIGHTS...just affirmations and trying to live in the moment...so the miracle is that my account balance was 10 x my tithe! and I have been using the account for everything and needless to say, it was more than enough to pay all I had to pay. I was so happy. God is really my source and I am healing.

The other part is that I am thankful for becoming more present to what I want my professional life to be. I want to be free, spend time with my daughter and yet be challenged and learn and serve with my work. Also I want to continue evolving a have my own business, art school for kids, coaching and empowering for women?? There are so many sources in English, not so much in Spanish and so many people come to me for advice, or just to listen. I have also learned not to become attached to their actions, I want to get better, heal, learn their lessons and feel truly happy but I am respecting their path and their decisions.

The Greatest Challenge

The greatest challenge is to find a blessing in adversity. Today I am grateful for all friends. Simone had a bday party and I had the chance to chat with mothers and it was nice. I got to spend time with old friends and it was nice to have a few drinks, and chat. I am grateful for having Jimmy drunk sleeping in my car, it is reality even if I want to hide it with my hands, and my heart. This week the messages have come from all over. Pilar's look, Claudia's talk, Arturo's astrological observation....his comments on the 4 important women in his life: his 3 sisters and his mom. him getting drunk. It is quite clear I now just need action. I love him, I am not in love with him, but he has been a blessing and is a great soul. He will be blessed and he will do great but I trully feel this is the end of our story. Oh, 2 friends turned out to be Isa Toro's cousins, what a beautiful coincidence.

Thank you Father Mother God for your infinite blessings, my heart is filled with gratitude and love. You are my source!

Great Day!

What a wonderful day! It is so important to be present and seek the gifts of each day. Today was the best. Simone and I spent the whole day together and these are some of the great blessings:

• We had a yummy breakfast.
• My contract is being worked on at the bank, we should definitely have it back by Monday.
  
• Exchanged a wireless router for a memory card for her ipod.
• She also got a craft and a battery operated pencil sharpener.
• We had pasta for lunch, with Alexandra.
• We ran to the movies to see Nancy Drew.
• Kokelita invited us for strawberry ice cream and cookies.
• We did the craft, mostly Simo alone and she did a great job!
• We came home and made dinner: broccoli, corn, mango, rice balls and passion fruit juice.
• We watched a movie together Daddy's Girls.
• I started downloading videos for her memory card, not much luck but learning.

It was such a happy day, we have spent so much time together, I love it! Also I came present to wanting to help empower women and leave painful, abusive relationships...

God is my instant, constant and abundant source!

Money Manifestations

They come everyday and money is FLOWING into my life. I am grateful for:

• All the pennies and quarter I am finding everywhere and randomly.
• The lottery ticket in which I won $1.
• All the child support checks I have gotten.
• My new account which has ever lasting funds and has allowed me to support all the daily expenses. Money continues to POUR into this account, it is OVERFLOWING with money!!
• The $32 my brother gave without me asking for it.

And this is just the beginning....such an exciting moment in my life!